I've had...better days...

I just came from downstairs, after inviting my younger sister an ice-cream sandwich. It was a chocolate one...When I feel sad there's nothing better than a good chocolate...maybe because it reminds me of Lupin...

I've feel like if I've been very bad...The truth is that I've behaved stupidly, parodying evil like if it was a game...I shouldn't have done it...especially now that I realize I've hurt someone very close to me by playing these dark interpretations of myself...

Today my dad took me to visit my Grandfather's grave...Oh Gosh...How much I miss him...I didn't want to go in, but when we did, all I could do was to sit over the place he was buried, on the grass...I felt so sorrowful at that time...I thought...life's too short to let it go like that...

I am...broken-hearted...But I knew it had to be like this, I knew I had to take this step...it's time for me to grow, it's time for Namida to stop being a child...

I'm taking a good advice about this...Also, I don't fear so much rejection now that I've been through all this. Now I know those who love me won't reject me, and those who don't...well...it's their loss, isn't it?

Dael doesn't think I'm prideful because I think I'm pretty. She calls it self-esteem...It's quite different from what I thought, because she says I am pretty indeed.

I have a joke...although none of my jokes are quite good. Especially not the one about the tuna sandwich. I told it to Dael, and I had to explain it until she'd get it. My nanny picked up some pants I dropped on the floor and told me I was like a little snake, leaving its skin wherever it peeled off....

Moonie.

Yes, you are pretty. And you're lucky to have enough self-esteem to appreciate it. Not everybody does. But you know what? It doesn't matter, that prettiness/ugliness stuff, 'cause as Sam would say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. And we are so much more than what we look like.

Yes, Deal, it's very accurate indeed, this is what self-esteem is all about: to love onself as he/she is, for we are more than what we look like, according to one's nature.

For sooner or later, our true nature always comes back to the surface, no matter how much we try to hide it under polite manners, or in the other hand, to hide under rough manners how loving we truly are. Therefore the saying: Everything that shines isn't gold...

Kisses,

Sam.